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Saturday, 03 December 2011

  • The Father I never knew

    Lined up in front of me, before my eyes, I witnessed tens of people bursting with emotion. For some, it was probably their first time crying so harshly. I witnessed people, of all ages, engaging in affectionate hugs, as if they had never been embraced before. Overwhelmed with brokenness, they stood in their spots, endlessly wailing. Yet slowly but surely, there was healing. The ugly sight was soon to become a beautiful one.

    I sat distant from the crowd and watched the people pace up and down the aisle. For a moment, frozen in my seat, my heart hardened and I held back every possible tear or gasp that yelled for its release. Then I felt this tender tingling at the tips of my fingers. I could have easily made it out to be the cold that was beginning to bite into my skin. But I knew that wasn't it. A cool breeze surfed through my left cheek and it... felt good. Without a doubt, I started to weep. I wept and I wept and I knew it was the very same healing that was those in the front were experiencing. Why had I not known Him like this before? The wounds and scars were slowly being coated with His perfect unconditional love. I overcame.

    No... He overcomes. And He said, 'My Peace, I give to you.'


Tuesday, 24 May 2011

  • Hauntingly Wondrous; Wondrously Haunting

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    My dreams are wondrous. My dreams are haunting.

    Some might think it is a careless practice to while the time away, after all, I'm digging myself deeper into the rut that my heels first booted.  But I think it's a beautiful hazard. It's enchantingly dangerous, no? I wished people learnt to dream more- to experience the thrilling ride of allowing something so surreal take over. It may seem a little too intangible to grasp at the first, but it unravels a kaleidoscope of exciting escapades.

    My dreams are multi-sensory, well, a few of them. I was on the move once when I came across a familiar scent which suddenly rushed over, and that scent was sniffed upon previously in a dream of mine. I was simply awe-stricken by that recognition.

    But of course, not every dream is definitively breath-taking. Last night, I dreamt that it was first day of college, I bought a chocalate coated donut with powdered with ice frosting on my way to school, only to be greeted by a class of boys and girls who were huddled together in pairs or trios, minding their own business. On the right of the class was Universal Studios, and on the left a Rainforest bar. And I was wearing a wedding dress, I think. If I remember clearly, it was peach colored, with silver chains draped over my arms.

    Many years ago, I dreamt I stabbed a prince with a fork at a dam with gushing waters. Soon after, the dam started to gushing with red-colored water- blood, you would guess.

    My dreams are wondrous. My dreams are haunting.

  • Wondrously Haunting; Hauntingly Wondrous

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    My dreams are wondrous. My dreams are haunting.

    Some might think it is a careless practice to while the time away, after all, I'm digging myself deeper into the rut that my heels first booted.  But I think it's a beautiful hazard. It's enchantingly dangerous, no? I wished people learnt to dream more- to experience the thrilling ride of allowing something so surreal take over. It may seem a little too intangible to grasp at the first, but it unravels a kaleidoscope of exciting escapades.

    My dreams are multi-sensory, well, a few of them. I was on the move once when I came across a familiar scent which suddenly rushed over, and that scent was sniffed upon previously in a dream of mine. I was simply awe-stricken by that recognition.

    But of course, not every dream is definitively breath-taking. Last night, I dreamt that it was first day of college, I bought a chocalate coated donut with powdered with ice frosting on my way to school, only to be greeted by a class of boys and girls who were huddled together in pairs or trios, minding their own business. On the right of the class was Universal Studios, and on the left a Rainforest bar. And I was wearing a wedding dress, I think. If I remember clearly, it was peach colored, with silver chains draped over my arms.

    Many years ago, I dreamt I stabbed a prince with a fork at a dam with gushing waters. Soon after, the dam started to gushing with red-colored water- blood, you would guess.

    My dreams are wondrous. My dreams are haunting.

     

Wednesday, 08 December 2010

  • For most, you're probably two weeks into your holidays and loving it. I'm barely five days into it and it's already tearing me apart. It's like I've gone two years without any sleep and all of a sudden, I'm forced to hibenate beneath a pile of sheets and knock off everything that I've encountered over those two h--, no, they weren't horrid at all. In fact, they were actually two of my best years, except that they could have been a lot better if not for... well, a few splinters that decided to hitch a ride, both literally (which hurts like crap whazzupp) and metaphorically. I can't imagine what life must be for the retirees-- Doing qi-gong every morning; playing Bingo or chinese chess with their fellow retirees every afternoon and watching their favourite channel 8 local drama series, or taking up line-dancing classes at the nearest community centre at night. If you've got a special liking for cats, maybe even wander around the estate to feed cats at some ungodly hour. But my point is, that the holidays are not as great as one would foresee, or foresaw it to be. So I've decided to get some work done/finished which I've flippantly tossed into the forsaken world of The Unfinished; Passe; Pasodoble( heh, gee, wth.). Whatever. And when I do uncover these unfinished work, I swear I'll take them through to the end. Or... if things don't turn our as plan, maybe there'll be The Unfinished (Part 2), yeeahhh. As of right now, I'll be indulging  myself in James Patterson's thriller novels and How-Ah-Met-Yuh-Mama. G'night.

Saturday, 21 August 2010

  • You're gonna be the one that saves me.

     
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    Tonight has arrived. From the moment my eyes flickered open and I awoke from slumber this morning, I wanted the day to whiz past so badly. One moment, I wished things would slow down as everything went by like wagon with wheels of fire riding down the rocky road, and now, I yearn for things to speed up and come to an end. But I like this feeling... It makes me wonder why I held on in the first place. I'm here sitting under my good ole orange spotlight, and my desk cluttered with so much junk I wish the light would radaite its fiery blaze and cause them to disintegrate in situ. I've got eccentric ideas, but no, I don't plan to let go of what I'm clinging on to, not just yet. Maybe it's better if time took a stroll after all, at least I'll have more time to fumble with my ideas, before knocking myself back to Earth.
     
    And then there's also him. No, Him. Faithfully sitting beside me, watching me struggle, ready to tear up pieces of notes, and there He laid His hand on me. 'Lay it upon me', He said, 'My yoke is easy and burden light.' Blessed by Your name.
     
     
    For You have set me free
    You're all that I seek
    Your love completes my life
    You're the air that I breathe

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  • Child Of God; --With a hammer & three nails, I was bought at a price. --Beauty, truth, freedom and love; Not a chance. Salvation is here.